-wil- blog

now.. i realised like a people secretly is dang suffering..
u hv 2 keep da secret away from da gal u really like,
& will get nervous ( some sort of dat ) when see or talk 2 her, without any point.
maybe she jz treat dat as bestie action,
but why da hell i care so much bout everything, like 'is our conversation interesting?'
' is she really dat bugged into da conversation?'
dat's senseless.
sumtimes get insomnia jz because of miss her so much till cant sleep.
is dat worth 2 sacrifice my quality of sleeping, & she nvr noe dat i miss her dat much??
when guyz approach her,
ya, i admit it.
jealousy attacks me.
but i wont make it too obvious. muahahahz...
ppl would ask, ' since u like her dat much, go propose 2 her larhz.'
okie, i would, if i hv da golden chance.
but, firstly, i dunno wut & how she thinks about me.
secondly, i cant bare da failure.
im not worried being rejected, cuz i noe dat's a part of this.
wut i cant bare is lose da friendship.
im worried she wont talk 2 me anymore,
no more jokes,
no more outing,
no more fun.
really worried dat this would happen on me.
i rather remain silence than lose a friendship.
i rather suffer alone, but not 2 lose a chance 2 talk 2 her.
argh.........
wut am i gonna do?
its suffering & pain.
jz let time heal everything..........
amen!!