oops~ i'd flunked it again!!

hell yea, i'd flunked my paper again~!!
but cant 100% blame on myself today.
hehe, i noe its an lame excuse.
da ferry make me & fish nervous though.
we reached da jetty around 7.10am, as usual.
but WTF!!
it's packed of cars!! wut da heck had happened eh??
we can't even reached da toll.
fine, we'll wait~
but until 8.15am, we still can't got near 2 da toll.
we were SERIOUSLY worrying wether we can make it on time.
luckily, yik seng a.k.a fish lover boy phoned up & called us 2 use da emergency path.
if not we wouldn't hv da chance 2 sit 4 da exam.
drove to da path, & da worker stopped us,
& asked,' buat apa??'
& we said,' exam, kecemasan. boleh guna lorong kecemasan, plz~??'
da guy gave us a curious look & said' betuikah??'
but he let us go through though.
woohhoo~
reached exam hall about 9.03am,
but WTF~~!!!!!
they started EARLIER!!!
& we were late for 10 minutes actually.
wut da heck.
i jz felt dat my head were spinning, couldn't concentrate at all.
okie, back to my paper part.
today im having maths paper 3.
i spent lotz of time 2 do pass year.
but wut's da use?!
still flunked it!~
alrite, im quite high when im doing question number 1-6.
but,
when im starting 2 solve question number 7,
starting to sweat abit. so left it blank 1st.
but cant finish at time at last. T.T
10 marks gone~
question number 8, hmm.. still managable.
question number 9, i tought my nightmare is over.
but question 10,
aww man. should do it right.
lose marks coz of my naiveness.
celaka. part (iii) i dunno at all~
jz only question 10 i lost 9 marks~
woohoo~
im wasting too much time on doing some easy questions,
da more marks questions jz left it blank~
not all actually, some part.
but dat cost heavily T.T
my hope 2 get an A, & my only hope 2 get A,
crushed like pieces of glasses.
wut da heck.
bio & chem i jz hope 2 pass, A is mission impossible 2 me.
so now wut?
im gonna end up my final wif miserable result.
gonna leave my college without an A~
huu~

frustrated

okie, after da hardwork 4 few months,
study like hell without sleepless nitez,
here comes 2 d judgement.
and...
MY HARDWORK DIDN'T PAY OFF!!

bio paper 3:
it can be consider ok d,
jz da slide part im screwed wif it.
but as long as i draw some cells,
gain some marks rite??=3

chem paper 3:
experiment is easier as i thought.
but wtf,
no calculation.
they expect us 2 explain everything.
we gain marks through calculation all da time.
btw, alwayz gotta repeat da experiment for n times.
hello my dear examiner,
u jz gave us 1 hour 15 minutes,
wut do u expect huh!?!?

pure maths paper 1:
argh, da best paper through all this days.
capable 2 finish it in time,
without feeling nervous~

chem paper 2:
seriously, i NOE how 2 do da questions,
but wtf again.
my carelessness cause lossing lotz of marks.
passing this paper?? neh. dat's jz a dream~
screwed again.

chem paper 5:
call us planning,
summore draw 2 graphs,
summore ask deep deep questions,
wut u want, dude!?

exam blues~

well, final is AROUND DA CORNER~!! so gotta really gear up & get some studies. wtf!! now i realised im stucked in every subjects, include maths & stats. im working hard on da pass year papers currently, & i found dat im not dat good 4 A levels. =.=

more importantly, my freedom is approximately is zero d. no outing, no gaming( still do dat when im in real stress. hehe), no lazying, no lying around, no flirting... wut i can only do at home is STUDY outta hell of ma life.

here goes my plan, & pretty smooth,too.

1. do maths & stats. AS maths is not a major problem but stats is. in A2 part, maths is a very MAJOR problem while stats not.=.= well, da lecturers r not bad & i understand wut they taught. jz da questions r too tough.
PASS YEAR PAPERS: AS & A2 done.

2. fixed my chem. alrite, im completely screwed wif it. da farking bonding, equation, formula, reagents & conditions... etc. makes me go crazy. i wonder how my chem lecturer managed 2 remeber all those stuff. their structure is almost da same... but A2 is betta a bit, maybe i pay attention in class 4 several times, while in AS im like invisible in class. muahahz...btw, da application part im screwed wif it. i dunno wut da hell r they talking about. damn~
PASS YEAR PAPERS: AS & A2 done.

3. save bio this subject from failing. okie, im vy RELUCTANT 2 study bio. lotz of explanation, lotz of terms, & sumtimes gotta hv good imaginary 2 understand bio betta. more challenging part is see a slide wif microscope. sumtimes da teacher jz gv a slide & ask us 2 identify wut cell is in it. okie, i admit im dumb wif it, everything i c is ALMOST DA SAME. no big difference 4 me. argh~ screwed again. btw, da lecturer a.k.a. datin a.k.a. my wife teach wif tremendous speed. i cant catch up larh darling~ (wut da heck.) okie, back 2 serious part, i TRY 2 understand wut she taught, but seems like it's a failure. i jz understand partially. most of da time i understand by reading on my own.T.T about da application part, din touch anything of it yet~ haih
PASS YEAR PAPERS: only paper 1 done. =.=

so my plan complete about 80% d. still left not much time 4 me 2 complet da rest of 20%. wut 2 do~??? hope GOD gv me more time 2 complete all my stuffs~

feeling blue~

okie, result was out yesterday.. Everybody was really worried about teir result, include me ,surely. Late 4 chem class, jz becoz don wana face da reality so soon. But even I reach late, da result is ot even out yet... =.=

About 10am, result was published at Exam Department. Everybody rushed down 2 have a look on their result. Everybody squeezed in front, make a shorty like me don even have a chance 2 glance on it. Managed 2 squeeze into da crowd after some hardwork. I looked out 4 my result, & it appeared in front of me...

GOD DAMN IT!!!

My result sux all da way!! Never imagined my maths cant get an A!! Argh so frustrated!! Chemistry still fail miserablely, but its better than my trial's result. A D grade is alwayz better than U grade rite? =) lotz of expression appeared after taking da result. Some in raged, some n despair, some look happy or high over result... I'm in despair, of coz... T.T Congratz 2 who excelled in da exam. Dat makes me feel envy over their results. I hope dat's mine.. T.T

Indeed, dat was a blue day 4 me...